Reduced Back Down To Nothing

Reduced Back Down To Nothing

from: I guess she's gone
dialup04221.intersatx.net
03-08-12
05:23

My lil' mischievous munky has disappeared from being online. Aw heck, that always happens. This one was really "impossible", like 99.99% of the people you meet in cyber nowhere, she lived in South Africa, and was desperate to escape that horrible country, not to mention this real pissed off dickhead husband who was sliding into a cycle of escalating violence on her. I just happened to be passing by, we kinda got in the habit of talking to each other in IRC, on and off, all day long, every day. For about 6 months, it was like being alone with someone in a dark cave, where you talk in a whisper, only turning on the flashlight briefly to get orientated, then back to darkness and private whispering. It was a LOT of fun, being "close" to someone in a totally private universe.

She relocated to London, moved in with friends, had a falling out with them, and so on and so on... She quit talking to me for a while, that's ok, I understand, this ain't my first rodeo. It builds up, then it eases back down, then it builds up, and it eases back down. (Something tells me I need to be FUCKED.)

Recently, I kind of eased off chasing her so much, you know, give the competition a wide berth, "take your best shot, Bubba... ", but then I kind of wandered back, and we just fell back into it naturally, she's a sweet child, a "dark horse", watch out if you piss her off! She's very michevious when she wants to be, but she is also very attentive, and she took car of PPX many times when his heart was breaking about Babycat and Buddy, many many times she was my only babysitter while I said the same sad shit over and over.

She has troubles of her own... I've offered to send her money, she won't take it... I've offered to buy her dinner, but she's playing her cards real close to the vest... I wonder who he is? HAHA

She can come stay with me anytime she wants, but she's carving out a new life in London, England, I ain't going there, and she ain't coming here. But, despite those facts, we still carry on everyday, lately its even evolved back to a really sweet thang...

And suddenly..... SHE'S GONE.

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