thanks, but my faith is very small and weak

thanks, but my faith is very small and weak

from: not much faith
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03-10-26
23:59:54

I have what I would term "insufficient" faith, its not that I don't believe, I just don't believe very well, I'm not very good at it, I don't feel positive at all. But hat's ok, I don't need to feel positive per se, I just need God to help me with His faith. I use His faith, that's something I can believe in. Don't think I mean that makes me deep in my spirit, I'm 1 inch shallow and I know it. I have a mathematical mind, I can think thoughts and sense a numerical ratio between certain parameters of what I'm trying to think of. In this case, its the longevity of God as a belief on this planet, it seems like all cultures have this basic truth, and what's the probability that such a diverse manifestation of similar ideas could come together instead of move apart, that's just not the usual way of nature. the concept of God goes against the grain of entropy, which is odd to me. Then there's the unlikelyhood of someone like Jesus Christ being overwhelmingly successful. That's just against all odds I know of. And this gives me tremendous faith I just wouldn't have if I were "on my own." So I say, "please Jesus, please, if he must die, then take me instead, I will go willingly, let him live Lord, please, I beg of You, don't take Dickson, Lord, leave him down here for a while longer, he'll be along by and by. Take me, I wouldn't want to experience his death, I don't think I could take it right now. better yet... TAKE COX or CURETON! they are worthless, even to themselves only Jesus Christ could make any real use of either of those worthless demonic bastards they have no heart, they don't feel their own heart, it would hurt too much, they'd rather inflict it on everyone else while they put on the appearance of being successful and gentle adn kind they are cancer just like the lymphoma, Dickson's neck got swollen, their HEADS got swollen they have much less faith than I , and that's saying something

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