Designed To Fail

written by gerald smith, sent to popeye-x 980217

subject: "born to lose" post
I wrote this one drugged up sunrise.
Post it if you want, or not, I don't give fuck.
Designed to Fail
One night I had a terrible dream, everything was wrong. I hated what I saw in the mirror and not just in a superficial sense. A loser, someone destined to be as my ancestors were, trying for things that would always be, out of reach. I would spend my time wondering what the purpose of my existence was, only to again, realize there was none. There were many times when something could have worked out for me, but it never did. Eventually I didn't want to hope for anything, because I knew I would be disappointed tomorrow.
Then, I woke up........., but unfortunately, it was the most realistic dream I have ever had.